In that MAZE I tread

I was wandering here and there

Thinking of the greenery around me and imagining the wonderful creation of God.

When I ran to the left I saw roses and then to the right I saw lilies everywhere it was green

So beautiful.

Then I began to run, I ran so fast that I forgot to stop by and look at beautiful new flowers and plants

I ran .. and ran.. I tripped I fell I got up and again started sunning not knowing where I am heading to...But still 

But still everything around me was so green and beautiful

Suddenly something gripped my throat
Fear was what I swallowed
I felt several shrills go down my body
I then realised I was all alone
I was the only one running
Then it did not take so long that I found myself in this "THE MAZE"

I was in the middle

Now I began to run.. not on my own but crying out "Jesus!!"

I knew this time Jesus was with me when I am running..

But still I could not find the door open

I said " Jesus .. hurry up its getting late.. its going to be pitch dark.. its getting darker and darker as I run ..

I cried .. I groped.....

I said

I am tired of trying

I am tired of crying

I am tired.. I am just tired fighting "

I fell to the ground... breathed the dust..... tears rolled down my dusty cheeks.. I was lost... totally... completely...I closed my eyes.. all I could see was darkness... A feeling of failure.. loss.. despised.. all alone..

Thoughts clouded... Will I ever see light? Will I ever smile? I cried.... again.. saying these words.. whether someone was hearing or not..ONE CHANCE.. JUST ONE LAST CHANCE...with my eyes still closed....

I felt a hand holding me now..

I said don't leave me .. Am all alone..

But the reply came .."I was all the way with you... Even when you didn't feel me I was still with you.. It even hurt me.. I even cried .. I tried to stop you... I prayed.. I fought... It was so tough.. I was bleeding.. I gave my last drop of blood.. "

I raised my eyes to see the one who love me so much
My eyes couldn't see
It was so bright.. so bright... (searching for words!!)
I asked who are you?
A beautiful voice came saying "AM YOUR JESUS"
I said "I was scared.. I thought I lost my soul... I was so sure am going to hell... I wanted to gain my life but lost it....."
Jesus said
"How would I leave you to die? 
How would I let go of you? 
Even before the world knew you I loved you...."
He said "IT IS FINISHED" .. WE HAVE WON OVER SATAN.. and there I see Jesus victoriously riding on the clouds...as horse

I said "JESUS please take me with you.. take me home... lest I get into another maze and lose my chance ..."

And Jesus said " Lo.. I am with you always.. Go preach the good news... Its not only you.. but millions of young people like you groping in different mazes...Help them out till that time comes.. till I call you to your eternal home in Heaven.. I love you always.."

And PEACE filled my heart..!! I love you Jesus....

Melba ... 

Almost 2 years!!

Here goes another testimony...

In a room with heavy light

Eyes tied with a cloth so tight

I feel a tug and pull with my hands tied

I hear a loud scream followed by gentle cry

They open my fold

Oh! what a sight to behold

A doll resembling that of a pink flower

Wrapped in green cloth so soft

I feel all four seasons flash in a moment

Then there goes my eyes into a deep slumber

Scars of love in my body

Oh yes, my heart 

That will always beat outside my body..!! 

- Always will love you (My son)

Just another wish to make!!

Looking plainly out of the window
Feeling the summer breeze
Just another wish to make
To touch the skies
To walk on waters
To fly with wings

Looking plainly out of the window
Feeling the rustling leaves
Just another wish to make
To live a life I always wanted
To glorify the Lord
To magnify the Lord

My Puppy's lessons!!!

Always be in a circle of friends  :):):)

When you are MAD/ANGRY at someone punch a PILLOW or better get a PUNCH BAG for yourself :P:P ..!! That is far better than carrying the bitterness in heart and head :):)

Say to yourself always ..."AM READY FOR CHALLENGE" ..... PRESS ON... GEAR IT ALL UP :):)

Try and be a TEAM PLAYER before being a LEADER !!!!

Imagine that you own a pair of WINGS... and then fly over your problems.. It will look sooooooo small when you rise to heights  :):)!!!

Look smart... Get a new hair style !!! :) :P

Enough of being THE MATURED ONE (even kids don wanna be kids anymore) yet... try being a BABY at times :):)

Get gifts for yourself .... A few flowers would replace a frown with a smile !!

Free yourself from clouding thoughts :) Run PAST the PAST .. Because its BEHIND you and NOT AHEAD!!

Always try and look ELEGANT :):)

DO YOU THINK ITS LATE???

Daily Strength!! :)

PREFER TO BE WEAKER THAN THE STRONGER ONE!!!!

I have realized with time that the ultimate purpose in life is not to slog when you find yourself trapped in unwanted displeasure that satan brings when you really want to do God's will. !!

I felt what ever happens good or bad according to human sense would be vice-verse when it comes to spirituality. When we think things go wrong and we feel that what has happened is bad then there starts a good thing above.

Here is a testimony when I thought that things were going bad but God feels happy to crush Satan's plans..

It was a new trisemester.. My HR classes started in full swing... I was just loving it.. we were a gang of 7 .. every presentation and every group work we put in our whole effort. We never saw night or day.. Enjoyed the work and study... I was sure about my internal marks... !! It was my desire to top up in HR as it was my main course. Yet there was lot of competitions... finally exams came.. I wanted to give it ALLLLLLL!! ... DO OR DIE.. FULL ENERGY..!! And now WHAT!!!!!!!! OMG.... I am down with high fever on the 1st day of my exam.. couldn open my book... not even my eyes...I was in hostel.. I didnt want to bother my friends .. what if they get my fever.. terrible!! I cant explain.. my thoughts went around.. I said.. God you know I wanted to do well.. you know i worked hard.. but all it takes is this 3 hours of exam to determine my whole semester's hardwork and am not able to write the exam..!! finally one of my friend decided to take care of me..(TRULY AN ANGEL IN DISGUISE) .. she didn bother about herself.. she was there bringing food.. giving me tablets.. taking me to doc... and finally that sunday.. (I remember next day was an important paper).. everyone told me to take rest in hostel.. but i needed healing so I got up dressed up and went for service felt so good..!! But that didnt last long.. I couldn stand for long so I lay down on her lap ... I was totally helpless.... TEARS ROLLED DOWN MY CHEEKS.. I SAID "LORD AM WEAK ... BUT YOU ARE STRONG".. and there goes a song that I heard for the first time..

"WHEN YOU PRAYED EVERY PRAYER THAT YOU KNOW HOW TO PRAY
JUST REMEMBER THAT LORD WILL HEAR AND THE ANSWER IS ON ITS WAY
OUR GOD IS ABLE, HE IS MIGHTY, HE IS FAITHFUL
AND HE NEVER SLEEPS .. HE NEVER SLUMBERS.
HE NEVER TIRES OF HEARING OUR PRAYER
WHEN WE ARE WEAK.. HE BECOMES STRONGER SO REST IN HIS LOVE AND CAST ALL OF YOUR CARES ON HIM" - Don moen

OMG..!! I was touched.. I felt I made my BIG GOD sooooooooo SMALL that my FEVER was so BIGG than His LOVE..!! ... I then returned to hostel somehow searched and got that song.. kept on playing it for 100 times.. had my food.. just put 3 pillows against the wall leaned and slowly started turning the pages.. whether it entered my head or not.. then slept.. again woke up.. kept doing this ..!! similarly completed all the 9 papers..!! My hand was so weak to write.. yet I wrote.. At times I even thought of leaving the hall because my fingers where failing me.. but still I wrote.. I used to put my head on the side lay down and write the whole time..!!


RESULTS:
News was out that results will be out that evening .. it was after some 3 weeks..!! ... I cant explain how I was feeling.. But just prayed in fact said to God.. that this time I did not write the exam you wrote.. Its not my marks ,, its Yours Lord..!! My friends and I gathered around a single laptop and started checking.. okay now whose number goes first...!! Melba's ??.. hmmmmm.. since all where checking the site didnt open..!! then we hear someone shouting from behind and saying "Melba you have topped up HR... and also the highest among all the other courses".... I could'n could'n.. believe it..!! My heart started pounding... now the site that we were checking also opened... My friends hugged me and congratulated me..!! I ran to the presence of the Lord... WHAT ELSE CAN I DO....Thankyou Lord... was all that I could say to Him for such a Big miracle..!!

Truly He NEVER SLEEPS.. HE HEARS EVERY PRAYER... HE ANSWERS EVERY PRAYER!!
WHEN WE ARE WEAK.. HE IS STRONG...

SO PREFER TO BE THE WEAKER ONE.. .. SO THAT YOU CAN ALLOW OUR BIG GOD TO WORK.. Because when we try with our own strength there are 2 options SUCCESS OR FAILURE... but when we allow God to use His strength then there is only one option VICTORY!!!

There is Victory always in the name JESUS!!!
TRY Him...!! :)